by Ejay Moore
She was held together by her mama’s prayers
and her baby’s smile
Her grandmother’s ashes traced a heart over her heart
as if fortifying it
The chants of her ancestors
wove a beautiful tapestry
of songs & poems
& tales of wild women who run
Her daddy’s hair weaved through her own
like spider webs covering a dogwood tree
That was all she had of him
She was held together by hymns hummed
and Psalms remembered
Held together by the love of a man who was gone
Held together by dreams for her
Held together by elevated expectations
of what it meant to be –
somebody’s role model
All the time she looked so
She was actually
Several months ago, I started a not for profit organization called ‘Our Lady of Perpetual Beauty‘. This organization was born of a simple (yet powerful) purpose: To uplift, encourage and empower women and girls through guided creative expression. I strongly believe that art is my ministry. We all have one. That thing we do as only we can that helps, shapes and changes the world and those around us. That’s your ministry. What is yours? Have you even thought about it? It’s okay, when it’s time for you to step into it, you’ll know. It may not necessarily be an easy transition, but it’ll be worth it to bring your gifts to the world.
When I started OLPB, I had a full-time job with benefits, making a decent salary. I was trying to work my organization and my job and not making much headway on the former. I wrote in my journal one day, “I can’t work on my organization if I’m working at Michaels full-time.” A few days later, I lost my job. Shit! I wasn’t expecting that! AND, I kind of asked for it, huh? Absolutely, 100% YES, I did. We ALWAYS get what we ask for. Now, between me, you and the lamppost, I would have preferred a kinder, gentler transition from job to NO JOB, lol. But it is what it is. I asked and I received.
Since transitioning from unemployed to self-employed, I’ve had some MAJOR struggles with fear and doubt AND I’m still plugging along. I’ve had struggles, and I’ve also had victories. I have clients lined up for the summer which is fantastic! How am I gonna pay my bills until then? No idea. I can’t focus on that, though. I have to freak out, cry, curse (a lot of cursing) and keep it moving. I have a ministry to run.
If I can help one little girl or one woman see and celebrate the power, purpose and beauty she possesses, then, it’s all been worth it. Namaste`
If you’d like to make a donation to Our Lady of Perpetual Beauty, you may do so at https://igg.me/at/TyUpkFoA6gs . Thank you in advance.
I am taking my own advice and ‘doing better’. I allowed my blog to lag horribly and I plan to write (get it?) that wrong starting NOW. This is the first of many new blog posts by me this year. I look forward to sharing my triumphs and challenges with you all this year as life has become pretty interesting for me as of late. I’m up to it, though. I hope that I can inspire you, encourage you, educate you and empower you to “DO BETTER”.
In Peace & Love